Monday, October 23, 2017

Life Lately

So...I've posted once in the past year.

The past 21 months have been the hardest of my life. Full of joy, but also frustration. I've felt happiness and hurt, contentment and frustration, excitement and pain.

We have fostered 5 kids between ages 10 and 18, adopted one 17 year old, helped one 18 year old transition out of the foster care system into adulthood and currently have 2 (ages 11 and 17) living with us.

I have hesitated about posting on here about it, because I have so many fears - fears of sharing too much, fears of sharing too little, fears of certain people reading my words and somehow using them again me, fears of our kids reading them and being hurt or feeling exposed, but I believe that God has us on this path not only to care for the 5 kids he's brought to us, but to share about this crazy world of foster care/adoption that is not talked about enough, that is not shared enough while there are hurting kids out there that just need at least one caring adult to change their entire lives. Programs, the government, money cannot be what helps them - they need love. And if they don't get it from loving parents, they will seek it elsewhere, no matter what "assistance" is given to them.

So I can't share details, but I CAN share what God is teaching me and generally what it looks like. And y'all, I need blogging back in my life. I miss it. I miss y'all though I've kept up with many of you in other ways. I can't do this to make money or be stressed about sticking to a posting schedule or beat myself up when I don't post for a while.

I have a full-time job, a very stressful one at that, but I don't feel that God is telling me to leave it. I feel like I'm where I am supposed to be for now.

I sit here drinking my pumpkin spice coffee (yay for all things fall!) in my Best Mom mug (thank you Tiffany!!!), the weather is getting cooler here and I just had sweet time with Jesus. My life normally is the opposite of this. But my parents took the kids for the weekend and allowed my husband and I to relax and just spend time together. I didn't even realize how much I needed this!


It takes me over a year to finish a Bible study (still working on Caroline's study though it's amazing!), I rarely get alone time and all I focus on is how stressed I am. But this morning, God reminded me that I need to just BE STILL (Psalm 46:10, Exodus 14:14). Be still, Kelli! Focus on Me, don't worry about all those things that stress you out.

I'm ready to take my life back from stress and worry and give it to God. Let Him be in control instead of trying to control it myself. Psalm 37 has been on repeat for me lately. I'm going to read it every day for a while.

"Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him and He will help you. He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn, and the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun. Be still in the presence of the Lord and wait patiently for Him to act." - Psalm 37:5-7

On Friday, we just stayed home, cooked dinner and caught up on This Is Us episodes. I was exhausted from crying because that darn show makes me cry every single time! I love love love that they're showing foster care now! The adoption story also hit home, though it was a bit unrealistic. Unfortunately, when kiddos meet their bio parents later in life, it's normally not such a pretty story. But I hope it is for some! However, this foster care story with the young girl coming into Randall's home is on the money. Welcome to our life!

On Saturday, we slept in, I finished Big Little Lies (the show, since I had read the book a while back) and then we went to Wimberley to shop, visit wineries and eat at the original Salt Lick BBQ. Oh my goodness it was delicious. We used to get more trips like this before kids so it was really fun!






I hope to blog more often so come back! There is so much to catch up on!

9 comments:

  1. I'm so so glad you guys had a weekend to yourselves! Those are so needed every now and then! I'm glad you're trying to focus on stress. It affects our bodies immensely. You are an amazing mom Kelli. Please don't ever double that.
    And Kevin's beard is coming along nicely. :)

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  2. I know things have been so nuts in your world! So proud to know you and to watch you become such a wonderful mom. Glad to see you back.

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  3. Life is stressful but I always admire how kind you are to people no matter what's going on in yours! Hope you get to slow down a little and enjoy the little things! Glad you got a special weekend.

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  4. You guys are truly incredible!I admire what you and your husband are doing and what you have given the children and teens that have lived with you!!

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  5. I always love it when you pop up on my instagram and my blog reader. You couldn't be more right - kids need (at least) one caring adult to love and care for them. I'm so grateful for you and your husband people two amazing humans for kids who need it the most. <3

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  6. Friend! You are just amazing. Simply amazing. So good hearing from you. So proud of you!

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  7. Aww, it's so good to see a post from you, and I have so many things to say! ;) You and Kevin are so cute! That plate of BBQ looks amazing! And I just think it's awesome how you guys have stepped out in faith, even though it's sometimes the hardest thing you've probably ever done! He is faithful and will carry you all through.

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  8. Wow! Such an amazing update! Can't wait to see what is next for you!

    xx
    Lauren Elizabeth
    Petite in Pearls

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  9. It is great that yall foster children, I have wanted to do this in the future. Welcome back to the blog!

    xoxo Falasha
    Bite My Fashion


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