Tuesday, February 16, 2016

Our First Foster Placement

Oh.my.word.  Where do I begin?

Let me start by saying that I apologize for the silence on the blog and for being so behind on my blog reading.  The past two weeks have been so emotionally up and down, but such a testament to God's faithfulness and sovereignty.

I cannot believe that it's only been two weeks since we received our first placement as foster parents - in a way, it went so quickly.  In another way, SO MUCH happened that I feel like it was a year.

I, legally, cannot share details about the case with you or post pictures of his face, but I'll share with you what I can.

On Monday, February 1, an 11-year-old boy came to live with us and many tears were shed.  Remember what I talked about HERE?  This process is not easy, especially for the child.  The second I saw his tears, I started bawling.  I felt dumb in front of the caseworker and our agency consultants, but I could not stop the tears.  My heart was so broken for him.

The next couple days went really well though!  He adjusted quickly and so did we.  We got him enrolled in school and got to know each other.  We played a basketball a lot, played on the playground, went to a Spurs game, colored A LOT, watched superhero movies and introduced him to God.






And then 10 days later, he was gone.  I can't talk about details, but we have a peace about it.  When God called us to become foster parents, He didn't say "you will adopt" or "you're always going to be happy" or "this is about you and your feelings."  He did say "I am calling you to this, I will guide you, I will look out for the best interest of My children, I will be glorified in this."

And that's just what happened.  It wasn't easy to see him go, but we had a peace about it.  We believe that God is looking out for his good and loves him SO SO deeply.  He learned about God and the Bible in such a short amount of time.  He got to see a husband and wife that love each other.  He got to feel safe in a time that must have been so scary for him.  I don't know exactly what He learned, but I pray that God used that time for good in his little life.

I was surprised at how attached I got after just 10 days.  I cried for 6 hours straight and then off and on for about 3 days after that, all while having total peace about it.  I miss him.  I believe that God created women to have motherly instincts and part of that is getting attached to children.

But I know that God is good.

Recently, He showed me the story in Mark 4:35-41 (in my Sacred Holidays Lent study) about Jesus calming the storm.  Here is the part that I have always just breezed over in that story:

"...Jesus said to his disciples, 'Let's cross to the other side of the lake.'"

You guys, Jesus had a plan and He told the disciples what it was.  He basically said let's do this together.  And though He knew the path and knew the plan, there was still a storm.  God will call you to something and He's with you, but that doesn't mean that it won't be hard.  There will be storms.  There will be pain.  And just like the disciples did, we tend to get scared and say, "Teacher, don't you care that we're going to drown?!"  And He responds with, "Why are you afraid? Do you still have no faith?"

Gosh, I do this!  I get so scared and start to lose trust when He calls me to Himself and tells me to just trust him.  There will be storms in this foster journey.  It will be hard, but I have to trust Him.  He is the One with the power to calm the storm.  I need only be still and trust.

So we look forward with anticipation to what comes next!  We could get a call any day about our next placement so please keep us in your prayers.  We know it'll be hard, but we're excited to see God's faithfulness and we trust His sovereignty.

XOXO

Kelli

26 comments:

  1. Omgosh Kelli, you and your husband were a short blessing in his life. Stay strong! Xo

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  2. So many feels... Love ya bunches sweet friend! I thank God daily for you and Kevin, and your godly impact on those around you.

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  3. Love the basketball picture. Love your sweet heart and your open home. Can't wait to see what else God has in store for you and the babies waiting for you!

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  4. So glad you shared your thoughts and emotions! It doesn't matter if you have them 10 days or 2 years, you still made a difference in their lives and they made a difference in yours! Like you said, you showed him love and introduced him to God. That may have been your entire purpose with that placement!

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  5. Mr. H and I have talked about being foster parents, but I'm just not sure I'm actually strong enough to let a child go back (especially if I know the full details of the situation since Mr. H is a police officer).

    You are truly an inspiration and a disciple of God's love. Thank you for opening your heart (and home) to this sweet child and many more who will come into your life. I pray they come to know God's love because of you and your husband.

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    1. Yeah that part is definitely tough. I didn't realize how hard it would be on me until it happened and we didn't even have him that long. You could do it though! It's worth it!

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  6. I loved reading this and following your journey! You and your husband are doing something so great! I'm sorry it was short, but I'm glad it went well - it sounds like you had some great moments and memories together!

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  7. This is so amazing! Prayers to you and your husband as you continue this journey, if nothing more know that you've been a positive time in their life no matter how long or short the time.

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  8. I would have been crying too, both when he came and when he left. I love your heart and what you guys are doing! God is so faithful... thanks for the reminder. xo

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  9. So beautiful-you got to impact his precious little life!

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  10. I can't believe how short the placement was, but that's so awesome how much you were able to teach and him and show him in such a short period of time. You're such a strong woman!

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  11. I know that you and Kevin had an impact on his life for sure. And I know you will continue to impact other kids that come into your home and heart.

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  12. I had goosebumps reading this. Bless his heart! You & Kevin are so so special and love how you are believing & trusting in the Lord throughout this process. I know you both will be so blessed, as will all of the precious children that come through your home.

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  13. What a blessing you all were to him in those 10 days! I'm sure you made a bigger impression than you even know! Your faith and steadfast determination to serve the Lord is a huge inspiration!
    Kelsey
    www.thepeacockroost.com

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  14. God used that same passage with me with me and fibro. I am so proud of you and your husband! Your faithfulness is so inspiring and I am praying for you all!

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  15. I can't even begin to tell you how full my heart is just from reading this. So glad that even though it was a short time, that you were able to bless this little boy and share God's word with him <3
    Green Fashionista

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  16. You are so amazing. I can't imagine doing this. You are a strong, beautiful woman with a strong, beautiful soul!

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  17. Wow friend! You are amazing. I have no doubts that you made a HUGE impact in his life in those 10 days.

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  18. Oh MAN! Reading this gave me chills. I am imagining myself in your shoes, when you see him crying for the first time. How could you not hold the tears back? After all, your motherly instincts were kicking in. You are so awesome!

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  19. This is so beyond sweet! I got the chills too! You are amazing!

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  20. Wow I'm so glad that God placed that boy into your loving home, even if it was just for 10 days. Because in those ten days you showed him love that he may have never known and taught him about God. What more could u ask for! You are so amazingly strong girl! God bless u and your hubby!

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  21. You guys are amazing! I can only imagine how much of a rollercoaster of emotions this is, but you're doing awesome things. What a lucky boy he was to get to live with you guys, even for such a short time! Will be keeping you all in my prayers!

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  22. You're amazing! I will keep you and your husband in my prayers as you continue through this journey.

    God bless,
    Edye // Gracefulcoffee.wordpress.com

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  23. What you're doing is absolutely incredible, Kelli. What an impact you had on his life in such a short amount of time.
    Are you able to have contact with him again? Is every case different in that way?

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  24. Awww, I'm just bawling reading this.

    The 10 days you had with him undoubtedly gave him hope. You shared Jesus with him and that's an eternal gift.

    Your ministry is hitting your community - where you live and work and play. Good things will come of it and I feel so blessed to be witnessing it.

    Thanks for sharing (and for linking up to the #SHINEbloghop).

    Wishing you a lovely day.
    xoxo

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