Let me start by saying that I apologize for the silence on the blog and for being so behind on my blog reading. The past two weeks have been so emotionally up and down, but such a testament to God's faithfulness and sovereignty.
I cannot believe that it's only been two weeks since we received our first placement as foster parents - in a way, it went so quickly. In another way, SO MUCH happened that I feel like it was a year.
I, legally, cannot share details about the case with you or post pictures of his face, but I'll share with you what I can.
On Monday, February 1, an 11-year-old boy came to live with us and many tears were shed. Remember what I talked about HERE? This process is not easy, especially for the child. The second I saw his tears, I started bawling. I felt dumb in front of the caseworker and our agency consultants, but I could not stop the tears. My heart was so broken for him.
The next couple days went really well though! He adjusted quickly and so did we. We got him enrolled in school and got to know each other. We played a basketball a lot, played on the playground, went to a Spurs game, colored A LOT, watched superhero movies and introduced him to God.
And that's just what happened. It wasn't easy to see him go, but we had a peace about it. We believe that God is looking out for his good and loves him SO SO deeply. He learned about God and the Bible in such a short amount of time. He got to see a husband and wife that love each other. He got to feel safe in a time that must have been so scary for him. I don't know exactly what He learned, but I pray that God used that time for good in his little life.
I was surprised at how attached I got after just 10 days. I cried for 6 hours straight and then off and on for about 3 days after that, all while having total peace about it. I miss him. I believe that God created women to have motherly instincts and part of that is getting attached to children.
But I know that God is good.
Recently, He showed me the story in Mark 4:35-41 (in my Sacred Holidays Lent study) about Jesus calming the storm. Here is the part that I have always just breezed over in that story:
"...Jesus said to his disciples, 'Let's cross to the other side of the lake.'"
You guys, Jesus had a plan and He told the disciples what it was. He basically said let's do this together. And though He knew the path and knew the plan, there was still a storm. God will call you to something and He's with you, but that doesn't mean that it won't be hard. There will be storms. There will be pain. And just like the disciples did, we tend to get scared and say, "Teacher, don't you care that we're going to drown?!" And He responds with, "Why are you afraid? Do you still have no faith?"
Gosh, I do this! I get so scared and start to lose trust when He calls me to Himself and tells me to just trust him. There will be storms in this foster journey. It will be hard, but I have to trust Him. He is the One with the power to calm the storm. I need only be still and trust.
So we look forward with anticipation to what comes next! We could get a call any day about our next placement so please keep us in your prayers. We know it'll be hard, but we're excited to see God's faithfulness and we trust His sovereignty.