I'd tell you what's going on in my heart lately...
I have not been in a good place spiritually for the past year and I'm tired of living like that. How are you supposed to pursue a relationship with someone when you don't talk to them often and you don't listen to them?
I feel like I've gotten caught up with the happenings of life that I've let my relationship with Him slip away to where I didn't even feel like reading my Bible. I've felt so down, have been overly emotional and I know it's not about feelings, but I haven't felt close to Him until lately.
God has clearly spoken to me lately through Scripture, The Best Yes book, sermons, my hubby, friends and my Bible study that it's taken me a year to finish. I need to re-prioritize.
I hate admitting this, especially on here, but blogging has caused me some undue stress and I need that to change. I have put an overwhelming amount of pressure on myself to have a "successful" blog when 1) it's not my source of income 2) I have a demanding full-time job as a CPA 3) I just do it for fun.
I suppose it's in my nature and something that I'm working on, but I have always felt the need to be the best at what I do (haha...I know my blog is nothing near the best but you get it). I am not able to post every day, yet somehow I hold myself to those standards. And I sacrifice time with my husband, going to the gym, reading my Bible and downtime just to get a post up sometimes.
I am letting myself free of that pressure. No, I am not quitting, but I'm taking the pressure off of myself by allowing myself to post when I want and I have time. I know that I risk losing readers and that makes me sad, but I hope that all of you will stick with me.
In The Best Yes, Lisa Terkeurst says "A woman who lives with the stress of an overwhelmed schedule will often ache with the sadness of an underwhelmed soul."
I don't want an underwhelmed soul anymore. I need to focus on my relationship with God, my husband, exercising, eating well and relaxing.
Thanks for understanding, friends! I'll still be posting! It just may be 3 times in one week and 1 in the next. I want to enjoy blogging and not see it as an obligation. And I love you guys too much to quit all together!